the last minute study thing

Woke late (as per usual), did laundry, piddled away at studying for comm theory.  Nonchalantly went to the film final, where we received heavy news that left me feeling odds dialectics and left me at a loss for how to respond.  Spent the night with Connie house-sitting, where I was up until 5 am studying for comm theory and then watching The Celebration--which was delightfully awful to watch (especially at 4 am). 

things are winding down

was determined to get a good day of studying in for comm theory, but it turned into more of a vague start to an overview.  the study party was generally unhelpful because we weren't thinking critically and I was overwhelmed by the large number of people there.  afterwards i went out to applebees with lots of great people and felt like i had a real social life for the first time in ages.  came back and made up ridiculous dialogue for my script, followed by generating research questions for my gendergenre thesis study. 

getting past the ideal

gave comm theory presentation about mass communication, which led into a meeting about the webpage, possible honors thesis topics, my screenplay, and internship next semester.  am feeling completely lost about the middle two, so andrew's forcing me to come tuesday with 7 research questions and 2 new characters and 12 lines of dialogue in order to push me past my "massive superego that defines all of my decisions before i even make them."  went to watch my actors in the 10-Minute Play festival (while wishing i knew more about psychology) and left proud and grateful for this experience, and hoping to get more involved in theatre once again.

last minute prepping

10-Minute Play Festival was all that was on my mind as we prepared for tech rehearsal.  Full tech was awesome, followed by a stressful comm theory group meeting that left Dusty and I in the barn at 1 am finishing a paper and prepping for our presentation...

the most i've packed into a day yet

the day was a swirl, complete with class, last minute errands and prep for life stories interview, job/advising/film/thesis meeting (all condensed into a one-hour slot of overwhelming intensity--these meetings always leave me drained because they're so challenging/encouraging in many ways), a reunion/interview with my high school english teacher (another meeting that left me drained and overwhelmed--i think i feel that way after talking with people who believe that i can be more than i think--which is simultaneously uplifting and terrifying), quick dinner before work at belden, followed by an intense all-nighter of film critiquing, comm theory critiquing, critical film viewing, life-narrative writing, and memoir reading.

sometimes i like to apply what i learn

It was clear that break was on the horizon as I slept in, skipped chapel, coasted through class, and the lazed away the afternoon with Connie until I traveled home into a whirlwind of emotions. Mom offered to buy me a new laptop (which meant that I had to once again give up my pursuit of a macbook and settle for a refurbished dell...but beggars can't be choosers), and after an hour of researching the best combination of memory, optical drive, operating system, etc, we placed the order and she began to feel some post-decision dissonance. Unfortunately, my warm, encouraging responses did little to ease her state of mind...