i love new toys

hit the snooze, as i'm likely to do, and ended up sleeping through chapel, though i used the time to look over my script and tweak my forensics speech.  was resentful during classes because they just keep adding MORE WORK which is totally unfair at this point in the game.  afterwards i babysat for the first time since high school, but spent a delightful hour and a half getting to know the kids.  went home and got a new snazzy computer that so far i LOVE, and then fought the rest of the evening to concentrate on homework instead of my new gadget.  i can't help it...did you know it has fingerprint identification?!  and a webcam??  and video making programs? and it looks freaking sweet??

sometimes i like to apply what i learn

It was clear that break was on the horizon as I slept in, skipped chapel, coasted through class, and the lazed away the afternoon with Connie until I traveled home into a whirlwind of emotions. Mom offered to buy me a new laptop (which meant that I had to once again give up my pursuit of a macbook and settle for a refurbished dell...but beggars can't be choosers), and after an hour of researching the best combination of memory, optical drive, operating system, etc, we placed the order and she began to feel some post-decision dissonance. Unfortunately, my warm, encouraging responses did little to ease her state of mind...

all this beauty

spent the day with my mom, which, like always, filled me with layers of love, adoration, respect, annoyance, frustration, and pity. today for some reason, i noticed the vanity of women, or at least the vanity present in my relationship with my mother. complaints of her body prompted my own complaints, coaxed from me through a desire for and tendency to engage in reciprocity, which ironically happened simultaneously with activities that (supposedly) help to bolster self-image, though more often offer ephemeral conceptions or confidence of beauty.