it's probably pointless, but i can't help having feelings

I dreamed one of those perfect dreams, one that I never wanted to end, and one that I tried to replicate even after my mom dropped the exuberant and freshly woken puppy off in my bedroom before work. The day seemed to be defined by the two similar--yet situationally different--evenings spent with potentials(?), and I oscillated so extremely, and felt so conflicted and confused, that I declined the invitation to hang out with both of them, and instead left for some much needed Alyssa time (with my friend, Alyssa...not myself...).